Crazy: tonight marks the final night of our apprenticeship here in San Diego. We are no longer apprentices, but now staff members with CRM. This year has been a year of clarity, of joy, and of learning. We have had an entire year to serve and learn alongside of many who have been serving faithfully on mission here in San Diego for a long time. With the end of the apprenticeship brings much excitement that is surely bittersweet as we prepare to launch a new missional community in Spain this new year and leave our community here.
Part of our process as apprentices this year was to begin to build our very own life vision statements. As we prayed for clarity, we journeyed through our past, our giftings, our personality; reflecting on how God has specially shaped each one of us for a specific role in His kingdom. It was an extremely clarifying time that left both Jenifer and I with a greater understanding of how God has shaped us and what our kingdom contribution could be and should be! With that being said I wanted to share those vision statements with you:
Jenifer’s vision statement:
I desire to see lives transformed by the gospel and will affirm and care for women and children as they journey deeper into the presence of God. I will create friendships that provide calm stability, inviting gentleness, and deep caring. I will join them in unraveling their gifts, passions, and unique calling so they can create beauty and order in the midst of chaos. Through my unique gifts of breaking down steps, enduring listening, and ordering paths forward I will provide clarity for them to see themselves as a beautiful image bearers of God.
Jeff’s vision statement:
I will clear new trails and create spaces where young leaders can be deeply formed by God’s truth, love and power. I will labor together with these leaders to clear these trails and I will walk side by side with them teaching them to love, trust, hope, live and thrive in their unique callings. I will find others who will go farther, deeper, and harder into the jungles of life than I will ever be able to – I will teach them how to clear paths for others and free them to be sent deeper into the jungle leaving legacies of faithful pioneers to do the same. There will be moments when we come across trails that have been overrun and are in need of being rebuilt, I will make those trails clear again and more fruitful than ever before. There will be parts of the trail that are steeped in darkness and full of danger; though many will want to turn back: I will forge ahead with those whom God provides.
As we reflected on these vision statements, we were struck at the way God has uniquely shaped us and prepared us for ministry in Spain. It is incredible to think that our giftings, our passions, our very lives are being placed squarely in a context where we can put them to use so well.
One of the final projects we were asked to put together as apprentices was to create a “HeArt Project.” The very premise of this project was to create something that expresses and/or represented what God had done in our hearts over this past year. This was a difficult, time consuming, and such a rewarding process that we wanted to share it with you. Here is how we both felt God worked in our hearts over this past year.
Here’s a picture (let’s just say a picture doesn’t do it justice) of Jenifer’s HeArt Project followed by her artist statement:
Soft Pastels on Paper
This year has been a sweet year of clarity. I’ve developed a better understanding of how God has created me and how I can be used in the Missio Dei, but what has been most life changing is my ability to discern the voice of God. What has always been there, used to be fuzzy, dark, and usually realized too late; but now is clear, bright,and radiant . . .luminous. The morning sunlight covering the nights’ darkness and illuminating a new day was the perfect metaphor for me to describe my understanding of how God speaks to me. Working with soft pastels was new to me and brought a challenge that was both thrilling and therapeutic. This medium allowed me to create with creamy rich color while allowing me grace as a new artist.
And here is Jeff’s HeArt Project followed by his artist statement:
Heart Project from Jeff Ott on Vimeo.
“Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep”
For me stop-motion represents a very child-like art medium. It brings me back to the days of my childhood. There is an innocence and joy in the medium. I remember as a very little child praying “the Lord my soul to keep.” Though I didn’t know what that meant then, God was faithful to answer that prayer. This piece represents years of prayers coming to fruition; prayers I prayed even in my youth that were not forgotten by God. Even though I myself may have forgotten most of the prayers I’ve prayed over those years – God has not forgotten a single thing I’ve asked. God has treasured every little prayer I’ve ever prayed and is still in the process of weaving those fulfillments. That realization has pushed me deeper into trusting in His faithfulness than I ever could have imagined.
We are so thankful for this past year and all that God has done in our lives and through the lives of those around us here in Golden Hill…we look forward with great anticipation to seeing what God will do in us and through us as we serve Him in Malaga, Spain. We have seen over and over again God’s faithfulness shine through in this past year. We are grateful for those who have journeyed with us and look forward to the journey ahead!!